Fujiko Suda / Reflection

Hi Pamela!

I always enjoy visiting your blog site, but your April 29 entry
has been particularly inspiring.

I've always liked Georgia O'Keefe's painting, but never
thought of reading books about her. Now I will.

Also, your comment that you were a reader, and felt lonely
as a child made an impact on me. I've always thought I was
lonely because I was an only child. In fact, I try to explain
many things about my behavior, thought process to my being
the way I am through my social upbringing. But maybe many of
the conclusions I have reached about myself are off the target.
Many things come directly from within. Which is an exasperating
thought, because often, I would try to explain my inability
to treat people in sensitive way as result of being an only
child in a nucleus family. I've just had the uncomfortable
thought yesterday, as a matter of fact.

Only in the past few years, I've begun to see who I really
am (not an angel I used to think I was), and it is quite
upsetting! Now I have to discipline myself to change the
way I do some things if I am to grow.

I'll come to your Friday performance with with a couple of
my friends. They are looking forward to your performance
too!

Best

Mastery

My very first trip to Sidney. I will be here for the
next few days for the workplace consulting training.

At the <a href="http://www.mca.com.au/">Museum of Contemporary Art</a>, I enjoyed the
exhibition called 'Liquid Sea'. These artists
pursueing their fascination with science and art
combined. On their way to <a href="http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/0452267560/qid=1049623688/sr=2-2/ref=sr_2_2/102-3797120-8454540">mastery</a>.
Then I realized my fascination with people. Lately
I noticed I much prefer to have people in my digital
camera images. When I was growing up, I only drew
and painted people. Why such intense interest,
pursuit? Probably because I just did not get enough
human interaction with the way I happened to grow up.
Spending 70% of my time alone between the age of 2
and 27. A high need child, probably.

As George Leonard says in <u>Mastery</u>, those who
become masters are not those who are gifted, or who
show talent in particular subject in the beginning.
They are those who are determined, who are persistant.

Drawing, painting, interpreting. They came so easy.
Understanding people, being helpful, acting with care.
These come so hard, because everything had to be
learned consciously. Maybe I could master being a
mother. Master to become a consultant that really
changes things for the better.

Great thought to have before the training begins!